Meeting Me Again

It’s been a while since I have known what to write.

It’s not that I don’t have things to say.

It’s that my life has gotten so big, so full and so rich, that quite honestly, I don’t know where to start.

I am a food blogger.

I miss being the blogger I was 8 years ago, when there were only a handful of us, we knew each other by our real names, we visited each other’s sites and we were true friends.  We didn’t just have friends to share our chocolate cheesecake on Pinterest.  We didn’t just comment because our secret Facebook group said it was our turn to comment.

We knew the names of our blogger friends children.  We watched them grow.  We delighted when our infertile friends finally got pregnant with twins, when the swimmer son of a blogger went to State.  We cried when a spouse died and we made pie to honor him.  We were a unit, we were real.  We shared our lives as well as our recipes.

I miss ALL of that.

Somewhere along the way, many of us became lucky enough to walk away from the 9 to 5 and become full time bloggers, a dream we didn’t know would change us.  We work for money, actual, real bill paying money, not just boxes of crackers and bottle of vanilla.  We say yes to projects we may not have, because we are businesswomen now, and businesses know they need income to survive.  We don’t know how long the luck will last, we only hope it does.  So we work.

Sometimes, many times, we don’t love it.

I want to love it again.

I want to share my real life, because it is wonderful.  I want to share not only the great things, but the trials I face.  And I DO have them.  We all do.  I guarantee you, behind the sunny façade of some of your favorite bloggers is a struggle you may not know.  But now that we are a business, we fear we can’t share the less than pretty parts of our lives.

I don’t care anymore. I am going to share.

The good. The bad.  The ups and the downs.

I miss my voice here.  I miss the friends.  I miss all of you, commenting, sharing your own stories with me.  We all have them, and I want to know them.  Will I still do sponsored posts?  Of course, yes.  I still have bills to pay and I do only take posts that I feel work with my life.  But I will bring back my blog.  And I will be my old self, the self I was when I said whatever it was that was on my mind.

I have SO much to share.

I hope you won’t mind.

Take, for example, I want you to meet Mr. Texas.  He has a name.  It’s Rust. And he’s everything I never knew I needed.

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Younger than me, by quite a bit, but with a heart bigger than anyone I have ever met.  He’s a very responsible provider, a lover of things he thinks I love, he’s got intelligence you can’t imagine.  And he loves me.  Every day, he tells me.  Everyday, he tells me I am beautiful, that I am his favorite thing.  His parents have welcomed me like you can’t imagine, and I adore them.  All of them – Rust and his parents – have welcomed and loved Seven as well.  Seven spends a lot of time with us, as much as possible, and they’ve been better than you know.

I am beyond lucky.

We bought a house in April, and have spent all summer with Sev making it our home.  We love it, and we love what we have created.  It’s warm and inviting, and we are filling it with wonderful art and collections of things we get on our travels.  It’s everything, and I appreciate it in every way.

So this is Rust.  He is mine.  And even better?  I am his.  He’s asked me to marry him, and I want to tell you all about it.  But that post will have to wait, because it deserves a post of its own.

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Until then, I hope you’ll forgive the blubbering, and maybe even welcome it.

I’ve missed you guys.

Comments

  1. So glad that you are so happy and have found someone who makes you so! 🙂 Hoping for more blogs like this to keep up with all that is going on with you.

  2. I am so thrilled for you! I’ve missed your posts and look forward to having you back. The decision you made to leave everything and go to Texas has given me the courage to take a long look at my life and realize it’s not what or where I want to be 5 years from now. The thought of starting over, alone, at my age is frightening, but what’s more frightening is the thought of settling for the known for fear of the unknown. I have a lot of ducks I need to get in a row, but by this time next year I hope to be in a different place, a place full of possibilities and opportunities. Keep doing what you are doing. Life is too short to settle for less than that which feeds your soul and lifts your heart. ??

  3. I love it. And I am so happy for you. So happy. 🙂

  4. So happy for you. I’ve just recently been reacquainted with you via FB, after a long time away. We knew each other through twitter when twitter was fun, and it wasn’t only about self promotion. I’m glad you’ve taken your blog back and will be sharing your personal stories from time to time. I look forward to reading, and sharing in your happiness. Good for you!

  5. Perfectly said. Your blog has always been one of my favorites to read. So many aren’t real anymore. And mind is just lacking, too. I love realness. Keep on. Happy for your new life!

  6. Yes yes yes… To all this. It’s amazing how blogging has changed over the past 8 years! And you hit the nail on the head… Yes we have all become guarded businesses. I too miss the old days of blogging (minus my corporate job)! I’m so incredibly happy that your happy! I can’t wait to read more!

  7. I love you, Susan. I am SO glad to be your friend and to have you as my best. I am so glad your true voice will be back ??

  8. So much love to you, Susan! Please keep writing like this. I’m looking forward to being part of your new adventure. 🙂

  9. HI friend! 🙂 It’s good to see YOU again. 🙂

  10. I’ve missed your blog as I’m sure many other have a well. I’m so happy you have found yourself again. I think we all do a time or two in life.

  11. Welcome back friend, welcome back! <3

  12. It’s been a while since I’ve commented on a post (on any site!), but this was such a great one! So glad to see you so happy, and so successful. I’m excited to follow you on your adventures on your beautiful life!

  13. Amen! So happy for you, Susan! And… welcome to Texas! ??

  14. So sweet. So happy for you and yours.

  15. So much yes to this Susan!!! I love learning more about you, our time together at BBNYC was too short. I too miss that side of myself and my site, every time I make a valiant effort to get it back, life gets in the way.

  16. Susan, I am so happy for you. It is amazing to see the growth of your business and the opportunies that have opened up for you. Now on top of that, you have found the love of your life and have chosen to follow your heart and be happy. I admire your courage and I wish you all the best. I always knew you would have great things happen for you in life. Talk to you soon. Love ya

  17. I’m cheering for you, kid, and am happy you are happy. I’m thrilled you want to keep it real here. Not enough people do anymore.

  18. I love this for so many reasons. Look forward to reading many more posts like this. And a huge congratulations. You deserve it all. xo

  19. p.s. A reader actually wrote me today, and asked me to stop babbling on my recent post. I took great pleasure in telling her she could consider herself unsubscribed from my site. So important to stay true to yourself!

    • doughmesstic says:

      Some people. Personally, I prefer every run-on sentence and heartfelt post out there. Especially yours. Thank you SO much for commenting. One day, we MUST hang out.

      • Yes, we must! Loved your beau’s post on his blog. Tried to leave a comment, but would work, so leaving here for you both!

        “Fixing coffee for someone (or tea) is one of the sweetest (no pun intended!) you can do for someone. I was always a milk + 2 sugars gal. After my husband passed away, I started drinking it like he did, black with just a quick kiss of sugar. It instantly made me feel closer to him, and I’ve been drinking it that way for five years now. Sometimes I use maple syrup now, but I think he’d have loved that, too. Congrats to you both! “

  20. We are all thrilled for you Susan and have missed you too! We love all aspects of your life, so please share everything you want. Welcome back!